i now believe in tilt.

having run worse than anyone in the history of poker , river out of lat 5 sats. i actuually found myself tilted. i hit the nut st8 ealy in tonites 3200 onthe turn , i checked knowing a heart can put me in trouble , i knewit would come he shoved i KNEW he had and caled anyway. 18 months of bad beats have actually made me into a bad player . not cos i called tonite but coz im so punchdrunk im sure iod call in shear spite in future. i need and am taking a break rfrom holdem. i know its a total lottery so i shall have to switch to omaha even tho i dont considerr myself much of a hldem player, the great thikj is with holdem i can play anjy old shyte cards and start inflicting sickness on everyone else lololol.